It's been a long journey since the last time I stopped in and feel into deep thought. I needed my time to stop and think to my self and let everything sink in and roll by. I lost track of time and left some old friends in the mist. I needed to come back to reality where I was blissful, fun loving and unstoppable. I admire my emotion right now for the fact that I am tired but wide awake, that I am nor sad but happy and that I am all in all relaxed. I have been good, school has been amazing with all my new friends and having some great teachers.
I'm surprised for the fact that Halloween is right around the corner and that everyone is buying thier Halloween costums and setting up the lights on there houses and blowing up the scary monsters once again. I can't go trick or treating this year because I have a hockey game against the Saints. I wasen't planning on dressign up Halloween has never been my scene.
There's not much to say but in a way I'm wanting to tell you everything. My kitten Johnny is a pound and is a bulky, courageous little boy with tons of hip in his step. he's moving quickly and growing up a little each day.
For today this is all. I'll talk to you later when I have a little more to say!
Goodnight!
- Paige Carloni
Sunday, 14 October 2012
Friday, 3 August 2012
Winnipeg Mornings
First time waking up at 5:53 am please do give me around of applause. I've been wasting all my years sleeping in while I should have been sitting outside enjoying all the great things nature has to offer. The beautiful birds singing, watching the moon go down and the sun come up. It's so magical really. The sunrise is crazy it's pink and blue and the clouds look like they swiftly blew in. The moon looks like its sitting there awkwardly wishing it could just disappear in the moment. The moments set great it looks almost as good as a movie but then you got the yellow grass to look at and all the dead trees waiting for more water, a broken fence of brown and white but that's the city's fault that I have to stare at that.
My dad bought a new cube van! Yay. Let's add to the collection of 6 vehicles. Noisy neuighbors, Maybe that's why there always mad. We're taking up all there parking places. Oops. Can't blame me I don't drive!
I woke Zoe up from a deep sleep to sit out here with me hopefully she doesn't stay mad at me she looks like a zombie dog. She has that evil little glare that she has and is pointing it square at me. I didn't want to be alone jeez.
So it's now 6:12 and I feel good not to tired not to awake. I love the early morning burglars I was sitting outside for at least 7 good minutes and was enjoying the peaceful silence and then here comes two punks riding on a bike pulling on the handles of the vehicles to see if there's any electronics so at this point I got scared there were like 40 feet away from me do I run inside and one yells at me that little fu**er. He said it wasent me. After they left I came back outside and decided I would sit out here again and all of a sudden I hear two car alarms go off. I'm like yea it's called getting a job!
Funny right? No. That's what I get for waking up early and trying to enjoy something. I get freaked out and it doesn't help that I already have issues with that stuff.
The moon I think finally disappeared and the sun is finally half shining.
It's a beautiful morning and going to be all in all a great day!
- Paige Carloni
True story everyone!
My dad bought a new cube van! Yay. Let's add to the collection of 6 vehicles. Noisy neuighbors, Maybe that's why there always mad. We're taking up all there parking places. Oops. Can't blame me I don't drive!
I woke Zoe up from a deep sleep to sit out here with me hopefully she doesn't stay mad at me she looks like a zombie dog. She has that evil little glare that she has and is pointing it square at me. I didn't want to be alone jeez.
So it's now 6:12 and I feel good not to tired not to awake. I love the early morning burglars I was sitting outside for at least 7 good minutes and was enjoying the peaceful silence and then here comes two punks riding on a bike pulling on the handles of the vehicles to see if there's any electronics so at this point I got scared there were like 40 feet away from me do I run inside and one yells at me that little fu**er. He said it wasent me. After they left I came back outside and decided I would sit out here again and all of a sudden I hear two car alarms go off. I'm like yea it's called getting a job!
Funny right? No. That's what I get for waking up early and trying to enjoy something. I get freaked out and it doesn't help that I already have issues with that stuff.
The moon I think finally disappeared and the sun is finally half shining.
It's a beautiful morning and going to be all in all a great day!
- Paige Carloni
True story everyone!
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Words from the Wise
No one said that you had to be wise by carrying around a big book and a briefcase. I guess they also didn't tell you they would yell names at you if you did. They forgot to mention that your not always good at what you love and that some things you really suck at. I've falling into my writing, but I'm not necassarily getting better at it or that it was been well thought out writing. I couldn't say that everything I do I do it big or great or even well at this point. Who judges?
They missed saying to us that things don't always work out as planned. ok. I get that, but what now? Who tells me where I go from here? Or how I'm suppose to do better next time?
All these lessons are being taught and hopefully learnt, but how do you know they are being learnt if your kid is out on the streets at 1:00 am and your leaning on God to help out. well, whose going to be watching your kid. Maybe the guy next to him under age drinking and with dope in his hand.
You never know if we're doing things right or hoping that you taught us well and we fully listened. We miss out on our childhood because we were free of danger and thoughts and all we had to do was play and have fun.
I never asked to be grown up and able to crawl and then walk, then be able to eat normal food, then able to speak, read and write.
I don't know the order these go in but soon enough I'll be married, have a family and have all the responsibilities of an adult and then finally get to watch my children grow up. I couldn't say I could handle all of that, but I know I'll give it my all to do so.
I couldn't imagine the daily meals I would have to make for my family, all the decisions, paying bills, working, driving, sports, food, clothes, a house... The list goes on and on and sure enough all I'm ready for is tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the day I sleep in, wake up, watch t.v., eat, get ready for the day, go to hockey, come back, eat and do it all over again. seems tiring. I'll just sleep on it for a few more days.
I couldn't agree more and say that I'm a procrastinator... See what I did there.
Everything I want to do seems to be pushed back or just to lazy to do it. I wanted to get my room painted I guess that's not happening till I get back in the third week in August!
School's starting soon and as much as I would like to say I'm excited. I'm really, really scared! I don't know what I'm going to wear on the first day, what my day looks like. Let's just put it this way I'm really nervous to be seeing all the people I know and not seeing them for such a long time. There's those old friends you haven't talked to in a while and the cool group and the girls who are just to single that they can't handle not having the attention for 2 minutes. Oh boy, I can't wait!
I'm having such a good day that all I can really say is that "Words from the Wise" you don't always have to be wise to say some words.
Favorite Quote of the day: All food is fit to eat but not all words are fit to speak - haitian
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink, She's a party pooper, You can't always fill a mind with knowledge unless you teach them truth, You can't teach an old dog new tricks, His eyes were bigger then his stomach, you are the change you wish to see.
These are all sayings that mean the same things to different people and can change on how you see them. If you see and look close enough everything is perfect with me, sometimes, just sometimes. You have to look a bit deeper and see everything is perfectly fine with me as long as your perfectly fine with tea.
- Paige Carloni
They missed saying to us that things don't always work out as planned. ok. I get that, but what now? Who tells me where I go from here? Or how I'm suppose to do better next time?
All these lessons are being taught and hopefully learnt, but how do you know they are being learnt if your kid is out on the streets at 1:00 am and your leaning on God to help out. well, whose going to be watching your kid. Maybe the guy next to him under age drinking and with dope in his hand.
You never know if we're doing things right or hoping that you taught us well and we fully listened. We miss out on our childhood because we were free of danger and thoughts and all we had to do was play and have fun.
I never asked to be grown up and able to crawl and then walk, then be able to eat normal food, then able to speak, read and write.
I don't know the order these go in but soon enough I'll be married, have a family and have all the responsibilities of an adult and then finally get to watch my children grow up. I couldn't say I could handle all of that, but I know I'll give it my all to do so.
I couldn't imagine the daily meals I would have to make for my family, all the decisions, paying bills, working, driving, sports, food, clothes, a house... The list goes on and on and sure enough all I'm ready for is tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the day I sleep in, wake up, watch t.v., eat, get ready for the day, go to hockey, come back, eat and do it all over again. seems tiring. I'll just sleep on it for a few more days.
I couldn't agree more and say that I'm a procrastinator... See what I did there.
Everything I want to do seems to be pushed back or just to lazy to do it. I wanted to get my room painted I guess that's not happening till I get back in the third week in August!
School's starting soon and as much as I would like to say I'm excited. I'm really, really scared! I don't know what I'm going to wear on the first day, what my day looks like. Let's just put it this way I'm really nervous to be seeing all the people I know and not seeing them for such a long time. There's those old friends you haven't talked to in a while and the cool group and the girls who are just to single that they can't handle not having the attention for 2 minutes. Oh boy, I can't wait!
I'm having such a good day that all I can really say is that "Words from the Wise" you don't always have to be wise to say some words.
Favorite Quote of the day: All food is fit to eat but not all words are fit to speak - haitian
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink, She's a party pooper, You can't always fill a mind with knowledge unless you teach them truth, You can't teach an old dog new tricks, His eyes were bigger then his stomach, you are the change you wish to see.
These are all sayings that mean the same things to different people and can change on how you see them. If you see and look close enough everything is perfect with me, sometimes, just sometimes. You have to look a bit deeper and see everything is perfectly fine with me as long as your perfectly fine with tea.
- Paige Carloni
Sunday, 22 July 2012
Missing a Special Boy
All you people out there are thinking aw. I'm thinking not even close! I'm missing my boy. The boy who sent me to the hospital, the boy who made a permanent scar on my face and the boy who broke my leg when I was 4. This boy is my brother Anthony. He's in California soaking in all the sun and enjoying margarita's while hes lying on the beach and staying in a closed gated community! That boy. Am I jealous? Well no kidding! He has been in the states for 21 days and today is the day where I get him to be all mine again.
He probaly hasen't thought about me. I wouldn't have if I was him, but I know he's taking lots of pictures to show us and he's finally happy to come home after a long, hard, fun journey of his. I never noticed how much I loved him till I knew I wouldn't see him for like 10 days.
Most of siblings love when there family is away and you get a break from them, but Anthony you NEVER get a break from him. He'll probaly end up hugging me so tight he'll break my ribs or some crazy thing he does.
He's going to be so happy to see his girlfriend Chelsea. He missed there one year anniversary. lol! I laugh at that!
Welcome Home Anthony, Welcome Home!
- Paige Carloni
He probaly hasen't thought about me. I wouldn't have if I was him, but I know he's taking lots of pictures to show us and he's finally happy to come home after a long, hard, fun journey of his. I never noticed how much I loved him till I knew I wouldn't see him for like 10 days.
Most of siblings love when there family is away and you get a break from them, but Anthony you NEVER get a break from him. He'll probaly end up hugging me so tight he'll break my ribs or some crazy thing he does.
He's going to be so happy to see his girlfriend Chelsea. He missed there one year anniversary. lol! I laugh at that!
Welcome Home Anthony, Welcome Home!
- Paige Carloni
Wednesday, 11 July 2012
The Best Things in Life
People say the best things in life arn't things. I would have to fully agree because I know people and they are more important to me than anything on this Earth. Some may land me into some trouble, some may dig me out of my own grave. Friends are the ones who don't judge, make you laugh till liquids fly out of Your nose and the ones who are the most loving and supportive people. I come off as sassy, full of attitude and maybe a little shy (I heard you guys laughing at that) but, I'm much, much more then that. I love people, I love dancing and singing and being My own silly self, I have trust issues, I love sweat pants and cozy sweaters and I can be the funniest person you have met... Just give Me some time.
I have a friend now there's two guys who think It's them, sorry Reid not this time. ;P
This friend is so, so funny, He's got the most beautiful eyes and man he can make me mad. We confuse each other all the time (Doesn't help that I'm kind of an idiot) but, We both talk and we have no idea what were saying or what we're getting mad at. One minute we don't like each other and the next second we laugh it off and give that damn we're screwed in the head wink. :P Our conversation make no sense and we still want to talk every minute.
These are the best moments in life! I mean it can't get much better then this right? We could talk for hours and hours just about anything and nothing. Your the guy who doesn't care that I'm incapable of sitting still, that I can't grasp the concept of cleaning and I refuse to be ladylike. Your that someone who realizes that half of the decisions I make are usually ones I regret, and I have the right to overreact at any given moment. Your that someone who knows how completely insane I am and wouldn't want me any other way!
We're total opposites even though we may not agree with it, but we both keep each other smiling and laughing and cracking the same old lame jokes and those cheesy pick up lines I laugh at because how could You not!
What I'm trying to say is that no matter where we are in the World there's those people and moments we will never forget and always remember. Even if there screwed up or what I would like to call f***ed up we keep living the same old way because that's what we know and learnt and will remember...
Sometimes the best things in life are all things if you look at them clearly <3
- Paige Carloni
To: My Great Friend Rylan for being the funniest guy alive.! :)
I have a friend now there's two guys who think It's them, sorry Reid not this time. ;P
This friend is so, so funny, He's got the most beautiful eyes and man he can make me mad. We confuse each other all the time (Doesn't help that I'm kind of an idiot) but, We both talk and we have no idea what were saying or what we're getting mad at. One minute we don't like each other and the next second we laugh it off and give that damn we're screwed in the head wink. :P Our conversation make no sense and we still want to talk every minute.
These are the best moments in life! I mean it can't get much better then this right? We could talk for hours and hours just about anything and nothing. Your the guy who doesn't care that I'm incapable of sitting still, that I can't grasp the concept of cleaning and I refuse to be ladylike. Your that someone who realizes that half of the decisions I make are usually ones I regret, and I have the right to overreact at any given moment. Your that someone who knows how completely insane I am and wouldn't want me any other way!
We're total opposites even though we may not agree with it, but we both keep each other smiling and laughing and cracking the same old lame jokes and those cheesy pick up lines I laugh at because how could You not!
What I'm trying to say is that no matter where we are in the World there's those people and moments we will never forget and always remember. Even if there screwed up or what I would like to call f***ed up we keep living the same old way because that's what we know and learnt and will remember...
Sometimes the best things in life are all things if you look at them clearly <3
- Paige Carloni
To: My Great Friend Rylan for being the funniest guy alive.! :)
Tuesday, 10 July 2012
Only Tuesdays...
It's only Tuesday and it's 1:50am and I'm not sure what I rather do sleep or write and I will always pick writing. Now, now I need to say I'm confused. You ask why and I will laugh my ass off. Simply because I never write like this and I have never written this late at night or what most of you would like to call it morning. Why all of a sudden am I writing with no absoulute passion or joy or even emotion? It's because it only took me a day to figure out that what my mom wants to see me as is a girl who is "normal" many people know "normal" is so over rated but it's what people want to see and I'm not what they call "normal" and I would change my clothes, my hair and my life to have my mom love me the same way she did before I got like this or how I suddendly transformed. I thought what great friends were doing for me was so right, but the only thing that is so right is what I judge is right or wrong and from this moment on... I'm who my mom wants me to be. I don't care how everyone else sees me or judges me or whatever it may be. I'm here on this planet because of my mom so I will do everything in my will to please my mom or for her to be proud to have had me. I know, You people are thinking wtf? I changed and it took me over 4 months to become this person and now I want to run back and become the same person I was and that answer is Yes! That's exactly what I want to do! everyone keeps saying be who you want to be. The only way for me to be who I want to be is if my parents approve of me and accept me and stop nagging me about how everyone is right about what they say I'm going to be like. I never usually use the word "hate" but the only people I truly "hate" are the people around me who are suppose to love me say "you're going to be the rebel child in the family, you're going to get tattoo's and piercings and do drugs" that's not the way they put it, but that everything they truly meant.
How come I'm putting it here and not in person to my mother is because she has told us her whole life not to be afraid of her whether it was doing something bad or not telling the truth. She wanted us to trust her no matter how mad she would get but not to be afriad or her. I always was scared of her because she gets angry and fusterated with me times and times again and I continue to be her living hell even though I have tried and tried and just can't seem to suceed. So, She wanted me to say something so I did in the best way a writer can.. in her words. I'm not great at keeping promises. Almost as good as a five year old is trying to keep a secret. I'm very good at being a snappy b**** you can fill in the blanks. Almost as good as McCallum is! and what I continue to fail at is pleasing my mom. I have told her I've tried but she still may not see it or is busy with my other siblings that I look up to and only wish I could be half of what they are.
this isn't a way of getting anyones attention or that I'm trying to have a sob story. That's definetly not it. I know the things I've done are dissapointing and full of stress and what this truly is, it's a way of me trying to say with all my heart is that Mom: I'm truly, truly sorry for all the stress I have put you through and all the hard times that I have made you deal with, but mostly I'm sorry I'm not the greatest child you could have had, but I do truly wish I was. I just want you to look me in the eyes and say your proud of me. I want to be the child who turns every bad sistuation into a good one and finally I want to be the one girl who proves everyone who I have hated my whole life. WRONG!
I love you Mom and I always will. I don't know how to put it any other way, but I'm truly dissapointed I would let you go through all of this just because i'm trying to be someone besides me.
I haven't given up and I won't until the battle is done and I won!
- Paige Carloni
How come I'm putting it here and not in person to my mother is because she has told us her whole life not to be afraid of her whether it was doing something bad or not telling the truth. She wanted us to trust her no matter how mad she would get but not to be afriad or her. I always was scared of her because she gets angry and fusterated with me times and times again and I continue to be her living hell even though I have tried and tried and just can't seem to suceed. So, She wanted me to say something so I did in the best way a writer can.. in her words. I'm not great at keeping promises. Almost as good as a five year old is trying to keep a secret. I'm very good at being a snappy b**** you can fill in the blanks. Almost as good as McCallum is! and what I continue to fail at is pleasing my mom. I have told her I've tried but she still may not see it or is busy with my other siblings that I look up to and only wish I could be half of what they are.
this isn't a way of getting anyones attention or that I'm trying to have a sob story. That's definetly not it. I know the things I've done are dissapointing and full of stress and what this truly is, it's a way of me trying to say with all my heart is that Mom: I'm truly, truly sorry for all the stress I have put you through and all the hard times that I have made you deal with, but mostly I'm sorry I'm not the greatest child you could have had, but I do truly wish I was. I just want you to look me in the eyes and say your proud of me. I want to be the child who turns every bad sistuation into a good one and finally I want to be the one girl who proves everyone who I have hated my whole life. WRONG!
I love you Mom and I always will. I don't know how to put it any other way, but I'm truly dissapointed I would let you go through all of this just because i'm trying to be someone besides me.
I haven't given up and I won't until the battle is done and I won!
- Paige Carloni
Monday, 9 July 2012
Untitled
I know I haven't written in a while so here I go blabbing on about nothing really important. It's Just about a girl who was tossed around, forced to smack a smile on her face to please people and of course been judged and misunderstood. All of that seemed like such a big deal to me at some point in time, but I'm starting to understand it. My mom isn't sure of who I am anymore and it got me thinking maybe neither do I, but of course I was wrong again...
It all makes sense and has and will. I'm like some kind of toy that gets passed around and finally is shoved in the closet were I don't get seen for a couple more years and then it hit me. I know who I am and no one else does, I've always been sneaky and productive and somehow my mom wants to know everything about me or thinks I'm hiding away from the world were all I want to do is everything but nothing. Im quite comfused myself to be honest. My sister does it, my brother does it and now I do it and its a big deal. My sister sits in her room late nights to finish homework and study for the up coming tests. She did it and still does. My brother he sat down stairs for about a year, everyday he would go down and play video games for hours. He did it. Finally I sit down stairs and sing along to my favorite tunes or watching some funny shows on T.V. or decided to take my book out and write a little and now I feel like I'm being judged of being a small amount of being a bit emo. Or to me that's what I feel like.
I can't finish this with my - Paige Carloni because that's what makes a post finished and completed but I have cut, deleted and added stuff to this post which doesn't make it offical anymore. I have updated and saved drafts and It's all because I really don't like this post, but hell I'm just being my random self Paige and not sure whether I should delete it or leave it be. So, I'll flip a coin.. Da da da, I guess I'm keeping it here for a couple more years.
I'll tell you why I don't like this first off because It's lies. I'm not pushed to the back corner... Second, It doesn't matter what my sibling did or do it only matters what I do... and Thirdly, it's so stupid, kind of pathetic actually and I'm just adding more stupid stuff to go along with it so I'm just going to shut up and leave now.
truly I don't know where to go from here so what I'm trying to say is I'm so very Untitled..
It all makes sense and has and will. I'm like some kind of toy that gets passed around and finally is shoved in the closet were I don't get seen for a couple more years and then it hit me. I know who I am and no one else does, I've always been sneaky and productive and somehow my mom wants to know everything about me or thinks I'm hiding away from the world were all I want to do is everything but nothing. Im quite comfused myself to be honest. My sister does it, my brother does it and now I do it and its a big deal. My sister sits in her room late nights to finish homework and study for the up coming tests. She did it and still does. My brother he sat down stairs for about a year, everyday he would go down and play video games for hours. He did it. Finally I sit down stairs and sing along to my favorite tunes or watching some funny shows on T.V. or decided to take my book out and write a little and now I feel like I'm being judged of being a small amount of being a bit emo. Or to me that's what I feel like.
I can't finish this with my - Paige Carloni because that's what makes a post finished and completed but I have cut, deleted and added stuff to this post which doesn't make it offical anymore. I have updated and saved drafts and It's all because I really don't like this post, but hell I'm just being my random self Paige and not sure whether I should delete it or leave it be. So, I'll flip a coin.. Da da da, I guess I'm keeping it here for a couple more years.
I'll tell you why I don't like this first off because It's lies. I'm not pushed to the back corner... Second, It doesn't matter what my sibling did or do it only matters what I do... and Thirdly, it's so stupid, kind of pathetic actually and I'm just adding more stupid stuff to go along with it so I'm just going to shut up and leave now.
truly I don't know where to go from here so what I'm trying to say is I'm so very Untitled..
Friday, 15 June 2012
Vancouver, British Columbia!
May 24,
You could just see all the engergy in everyone's eyes the morning of the big trip, you could also see baggy eyes since we had to wake up at 2:30 in the morning. I couldn't say much or do much from how tired my whole body was, but boy was I ever excited!
For some this was our first flight in our lives and a big achievment to enjoy it with our friends. For others they have been on a lot of planes and this was nothing new. I couldn't stop twitching my legs as we started to move. I was in airplane mode, so was my iPod and I was ready for the take off. As we went up and a lot further up and up a little more I didn't know if we were ever going to stop going up. I noticed how loud the plane was and I'm not talking about the engine. I feel bad for those poor seniors on the plane trying to make it back home maybe to see some grandchildren or visiting older sons of daughters they havent seen in a while, whatever it may have been they didn't get to enjoy it as much as we did. We had arrived at our destination which was Victoria Airport. The whole place was made of glass and it glisened in the sun, or shall I say rain. As soon as we picked up our luggage we were already headed for our bus. We made one small stop which included going to Coombs Market, which was a very fun but crazy place to see. They had goats on there roofs just chilling and eating the grass. We also hogged the mini marry-go-round, which was quite a lot of fun for a little kids ride, poor kid watching he just wanted a minute to go on. We made one more small stop which was the most incredible place I have seen we went to Cathedrial Grove and man those were some massive tree's. I love the nature more then anything and my pictures proved it all. We're on our way to the hotel in Tofino where we would stay there for 3 days. We headed for our rooms. The girls and I opened up our door and it was just beautiful. Our sight was like nothing you could dream of, we could see three seperate mountians with the ocean just laying in front of them like a warm cozy blanket.
May 25,
We woke up nice and early just so we could watch the sunrise between the mountians, which was amazing to see since even in Winnipeg I haven't got up that early to see a sunrise. Our plans for today was going at 9 to go watch the bears enjoy there breakfast while we watched them from a small boat trying not to go to close but still get a good picture without it looking like a big black blob. We got some free time in bewteen to go and find a little snack shack and enjoy our lunch as we made our way back to go and watch the whales. I enjoyed the quiet day of being out on the ocean for a long time. I didn't get sea sick and neither did anyone sitting near me.
It was later in the night where we had had a party with the boys, they came over and ripped our beds apart, were super loud and crazy as ever. I enjoyed a nice redbull and had not fallen asleep till around 2 in the morning. After the teachers had fallen asleep the neighbor boys decided we should sit on the roof of the hotel to get a better look at the mountians... Ok, it was my plan, but they were very, very beautiful and was totally worth it.
May 26,
Today started off as an adventous day for us all. We were all a little tired from the night before but we all should have seen this coming. The first thing we did was head to the beach which was Pacific Rim National Park we had a tour guide who was really good at what he does. He had showed us a Snail, a Crab, clams ect. I can't remeber the name of these things it sounds something like a toseshecse? I have no absoute idea what they are called, but they were cool. I had Touched one and it curled up into a smaller blob of whatever it is. ... Yea, that was pretty descriptive. I was walking all in the water after I was told not too, I have to admit it was freezing. We all enjoyed this day of learning about the ocean life and the rainforest. We also cleaned up the Beach and ended up finding some cool things like Japinese bottles and random stuff like a hola-hoop and lots of rope. On the way back to our hotel we stopped a little Beach and got to play around in the sand. I was having a crazy day and wanted to be a fool so I decided I would go all in. I had made my friend Alyssa go in with me just so I could share the best moment in my life, which was swimming in the Ocean! Today was a fun learning experience and a cold ride back to the hotel.
May 27,
We had moved to Nanaimo to catch the Ferry on our way to Whistler. We all enjoyed the ferry ride even though it didn't last to long. It was windy as hell and made it very hard to walk on the top deck, but made the ride even a better experience. We had arrived at whistle where we just drived off the ferry like it was no big deal, I was quite amazed actually. We made our way to the one and only Olympic Village it was so much fun and was a huge place for everyone ages 25 and up. I haven't seen anyone younger then that there. We all spent some shopping money there because it had a lot of stores and tons of different styles. My friend and I saw a shop without a name on it we thought that was pretty neat and decided we would take a look. She saw some nice shirts and was looking at it and checking the price tag and had no idea of the things around her, I looked up and saw over 100 bongs at least. I looked at her, she looked up and we both ran the hell out of that place. We laughed for 20 minutes straight after that had happened we found that to be a very funny memory we won't ever forget. I can't forget to tell you though how the sides of the mountians had looked. We got back on our bus and and drove to our Best Western Hotel in Squamish we made some of our favorite memories in Squamish because we learnt how far you can push a person. Alyssa ened up in tears from words being said and I needed to be her comfort. I had a fun time sitting in the window sill of the hotel were it looked like out of my window like mini New York City I loved it so much here. We played a survior game. The green team won which was our team and we all had a blast drawing facepaint on eachothers face.We then all went white water rafting whcih was one of the funnest things we did here. the waves were huge and splashed you in the face as we also had tons of water fights. My friend and I saw horses and wanted to go see them since I love every animal in the world and I just had to give it a big kiss on the cheek. Later that evening we enjoyed our dinner at the Legendary White Spot, which was so delious I didn't even get a picture of my food. We walked back to our hotel and swam in the pool there for 2 hours. we were all pretty tired from this long hard day. I sat and looked out of our window some more because across the way was a beautiful building with tons of changing coloured panels that seemed like a dream. there were buildings standing so tall and mighty with millions of lights. It was my favorite place to write about the trip.
May 28,
This was our fifth day and our last full day. We drove to Vancouver and spent the whole day out in the beautiful sun. We went to the Capilano Suspension Bridge which everyone seemed to love. One of my legs felt a little unsure of the situation and I don't blame it. I certainly enjoyed walking the Cliff Walk. It was super high up and was glass underneath your feet, but at least I knew the stupid boys couldn't swing it! We bused our way to the Vancouver Aquarium where we had the best time ever with my all time favorite the baby dolphin. It loved me and I adored it. it was the cutest little thing and had such a fun and loving attitude. We then all jumped on our bikes and headed for a nice bike ride along Stanly Park it was beautiful weather the whole week and we took advanage of that. We had a very, very long rest before we had to go for dinner to the Old Spagetti Factory. We all went to bed early this night for sure!
June 29,
We woke up and were all a little dissapointed it was already time to go home. We had learned all we needed to become a class and now its time to head to Winnipeg. I can say that this trip was all I needed for this long hard year we all went through. We all pushed eachothers buttons and where ready to go home and push some more. This time I think the Seniors where happy with there return too because we were all sleeping like little babies on this flight home. I wanted to write one last time so I took out my journal and my favorite pen and wrote on my way to Winnipeg as the skies are more blue, the people and there familiar faces and all the things that make Winnipeg my favorite place to be.
The people may change, but the memories will always stay the same!
- Paige Carloni
Favorite trip in a lifetime! :D
You could just see all the engergy in everyone's eyes the morning of the big trip, you could also see baggy eyes since we had to wake up at 2:30 in the morning. I couldn't say much or do much from how tired my whole body was, but boy was I ever excited!
For some this was our first flight in our lives and a big achievment to enjoy it with our friends. For others they have been on a lot of planes and this was nothing new. I couldn't stop twitching my legs as we started to move. I was in airplane mode, so was my iPod and I was ready for the take off. As we went up and a lot further up and up a little more I didn't know if we were ever going to stop going up. I noticed how loud the plane was and I'm not talking about the engine. I feel bad for those poor seniors on the plane trying to make it back home maybe to see some grandchildren or visiting older sons of daughters they havent seen in a while, whatever it may have been they didn't get to enjoy it as much as we did. We had arrived at our destination which was Victoria Airport. The whole place was made of glass and it glisened in the sun, or shall I say rain. As soon as we picked up our luggage we were already headed for our bus. We made one small stop which included going to Coombs Market, which was a very fun but crazy place to see. They had goats on there roofs just chilling and eating the grass. We also hogged the mini marry-go-round, which was quite a lot of fun for a little kids ride, poor kid watching he just wanted a minute to go on. We made one more small stop which was the most incredible place I have seen we went to Cathedrial Grove and man those were some massive tree's. I love the nature more then anything and my pictures proved it all. We're on our way to the hotel in Tofino where we would stay there for 3 days. We headed for our rooms. The girls and I opened up our door and it was just beautiful. Our sight was like nothing you could dream of, we could see three seperate mountians with the ocean just laying in front of them like a warm cozy blanket.
May 25,
We woke up nice and early just so we could watch the sunrise between the mountians, which was amazing to see since even in Winnipeg I haven't got up that early to see a sunrise. Our plans for today was going at 9 to go watch the bears enjoy there breakfast while we watched them from a small boat trying not to go to close but still get a good picture without it looking like a big black blob. We got some free time in bewteen to go and find a little snack shack and enjoy our lunch as we made our way back to go and watch the whales. I enjoyed the quiet day of being out on the ocean for a long time. I didn't get sea sick and neither did anyone sitting near me.
It was later in the night where we had had a party with the boys, they came over and ripped our beds apart, were super loud and crazy as ever. I enjoyed a nice redbull and had not fallen asleep till around 2 in the morning. After the teachers had fallen asleep the neighbor boys decided we should sit on the roof of the hotel to get a better look at the mountians... Ok, it was my plan, but they were very, very beautiful and was totally worth it.
May 26,
Today started off as an adventous day for us all. We were all a little tired from the night before but we all should have seen this coming. The first thing we did was head to the beach which was Pacific Rim National Park we had a tour guide who was really good at what he does. He had showed us a Snail, a Crab, clams ect. I can't remeber the name of these things it sounds something like a toseshecse? I have no absoute idea what they are called, but they were cool. I had Touched one and it curled up into a smaller blob of whatever it is. ... Yea, that was pretty descriptive. I was walking all in the water after I was told not too, I have to admit it was freezing. We all enjoyed this day of learning about the ocean life and the rainforest. We also cleaned up the Beach and ended up finding some cool things like Japinese bottles and random stuff like a hola-hoop and lots of rope. On the way back to our hotel we stopped a little Beach and got to play around in the sand. I was having a crazy day and wanted to be a fool so I decided I would go all in. I had made my friend Alyssa go in with me just so I could share the best moment in my life, which was swimming in the Ocean! Today was a fun learning experience and a cold ride back to the hotel.
May 27,
We had moved to Nanaimo to catch the Ferry on our way to Whistler. We all enjoyed the ferry ride even though it didn't last to long. It was windy as hell and made it very hard to walk on the top deck, but made the ride even a better experience. We had arrived at whistle where we just drived off the ferry like it was no big deal, I was quite amazed actually. We made our way to the one and only Olympic Village it was so much fun and was a huge place for everyone ages 25 and up. I haven't seen anyone younger then that there. We all spent some shopping money there because it had a lot of stores and tons of different styles. My friend and I saw a shop without a name on it we thought that was pretty neat and decided we would take a look. She saw some nice shirts and was looking at it and checking the price tag and had no idea of the things around her, I looked up and saw over 100 bongs at least. I looked at her, she looked up and we both ran the hell out of that place. We laughed for 20 minutes straight after that had happened we found that to be a very funny memory we won't ever forget. I can't forget to tell you though how the sides of the mountians had looked. We got back on our bus and and drove to our Best Western Hotel in Squamish we made some of our favorite memories in Squamish because we learnt how far you can push a person. Alyssa ened up in tears from words being said and I needed to be her comfort. I had a fun time sitting in the window sill of the hotel were it looked like out of my window like mini New York City I loved it so much here. We played a survior game. The green team won which was our team and we all had a blast drawing facepaint on eachothers face.We then all went white water rafting whcih was one of the funnest things we did here. the waves were huge and splashed you in the face as we also had tons of water fights. My friend and I saw horses and wanted to go see them since I love every animal in the world and I just had to give it a big kiss on the cheek. Later that evening we enjoyed our dinner at the Legendary White Spot, which was so delious I didn't even get a picture of my food. We walked back to our hotel and swam in the pool there for 2 hours. we were all pretty tired from this long hard day. I sat and looked out of our window some more because across the way was a beautiful building with tons of changing coloured panels that seemed like a dream. there were buildings standing so tall and mighty with millions of lights. It was my favorite place to write about the trip.
May 28,
This was our fifth day and our last full day. We drove to Vancouver and spent the whole day out in the beautiful sun. We went to the Capilano Suspension Bridge which everyone seemed to love. One of my legs felt a little unsure of the situation and I don't blame it. I certainly enjoyed walking the Cliff Walk. It was super high up and was glass underneath your feet, but at least I knew the stupid boys couldn't swing it! We bused our way to the Vancouver Aquarium where we had the best time ever with my all time favorite the baby dolphin. It loved me and I adored it. it was the cutest little thing and had such a fun and loving attitude. We then all jumped on our bikes and headed for a nice bike ride along Stanly Park it was beautiful weather the whole week and we took advanage of that. We had a very, very long rest before we had to go for dinner to the Old Spagetti Factory. We all went to bed early this night for sure!
June 29,
We woke up and were all a little dissapointed it was already time to go home. We had learned all we needed to become a class and now its time to head to Winnipeg. I can say that this trip was all I needed for this long hard year we all went through. We all pushed eachothers buttons and where ready to go home and push some more. This time I think the Seniors where happy with there return too because we were all sleeping like little babies on this flight home. I wanted to write one last time so I took out my journal and my favorite pen and wrote on my way to Winnipeg as the skies are more blue, the people and there familiar faces and all the things that make Winnipeg my favorite place to be.
The people may change, but the memories will always stay the same!
- Paige Carloni
Favorite trip in a lifetime! :D
Sunday, 10 June 2012
A second home
This isn't no ordinary home. It's a second home full of loving people and tons of stories and laughter. I love this home just as much as I love my first home. we're not blood related, not even close. but No matter what I wouldn't want to lose any of these super fun people in my life. The people don't judge and they also support each move I make. They act like they knew me my whole life, in which I would love to admit that. They know what I'm thinking and it goes both ways, this house is full of super geniuses and I love to just sit there and stare at a wall when this seems to happen :P
This family is outstanding. Karen is so full of life, with tons of heart for what she believes. Her favorite word may be "dumbass" but it suits her style really nicely and I was not just calling her a dumbass! Reid on the other hand loves to be right, any chance he gets he will correct it, but thats partly why he's one of my favorite people in the world and one who is always there for I. Riley well, he's Riley. I love him and he had no idea he hurt me and I'm okay with that because things are meant to happen. I love this home because it's another place that I can belong to and another place that I'm wanted.
We share everything to vacations, stories, funny memories and crazy family times. This house is were I was meant to spend my extra days off and enjoy some freedom and peacefulness and to have tons of fun. I was resently was told I was like a daughter that Reid has never had and that means the world to know that these people truly will be there when I need a lifting opinion and a truthful comment, even when I may not want to hear it. I questioned Karen's thoughts on myself and I was told she was hurt to think I was heart broken because of Riley's choice and all that had mattered was that I was her first thought in mind.
This place comes to show that I'm not just some kind of house guest, that I have something to offer to them and they have something to offer me. It works if you give a little and take a little. I seem to always leave that house with so much happiness from what I have just learnt and heard. each time I return it's a new begining and another great place to call home! :)
or as far as if they keep inviting me back over... :D
- Paige Carloni!
To: The Parker family! for of course, loving me! <3
This family is outstanding. Karen is so full of life, with tons of heart for what she believes. Her favorite word may be "dumbass" but it suits her style really nicely and I was not just calling her a dumbass! Reid on the other hand loves to be right, any chance he gets he will correct it, but thats partly why he's one of my favorite people in the world and one who is always there for I. Riley well, he's Riley. I love him and he had no idea he hurt me and I'm okay with that because things are meant to happen. I love this home because it's another place that I can belong to and another place that I'm wanted.
We share everything to vacations, stories, funny memories and crazy family times. This house is were I was meant to spend my extra days off and enjoy some freedom and peacefulness and to have tons of fun. I was resently was told I was like a daughter that Reid has never had and that means the world to know that these people truly will be there when I need a lifting opinion and a truthful comment, even when I may not want to hear it. I questioned Karen's thoughts on myself and I was told she was hurt to think I was heart broken because of Riley's choice and all that had mattered was that I was her first thought in mind.
This place comes to show that I'm not just some kind of house guest, that I have something to offer to them and they have something to offer me. It works if you give a little and take a little. I seem to always leave that house with so much happiness from what I have just learnt and heard. each time I return it's a new begining and another great place to call home! :)
or as far as if they keep inviting me back over... :D
- Paige Carloni!
To: The Parker family! for of course, loving me! <3
Thursday, 31 May 2012
Happy to be Home
I'm sitting here with a smirk on my face, thinking don't I just love to start from the back and work my way forwards. I like to work that way, knowingly that I got everything under my control. Just yesterday I was on a plane far, far away just hoping I would make it back home safe and sound where my family would welcome me back to Winnipeg with a nice big sign that said "Welcome Home Paige" and for that, They did! It was only my Mother, but it was better then anything, seeing my Mother and giving her a nice big hug knowing she was missing me all along. Sometimes that's not always how it goes, sometimes people don't make it home and sometimes we don't realize those are the moments that do happen. but that's why I didn't take anything that had happened right there for granted.
I'm happy to be home. most people said they could go forever living there, well of course I could, but I would need those people I love around me to make my home, my home. I loved it there, every turn you made you saw new adventures up along the road and new places you were just dying to see. I took every moment in and kept it there to stay. I needed that place, more then I needed those brand new shoes or that Bench sweater. It helped me deal with situations and helped me face all those problems that seemed so big and that weren't so big after all, but most off it helped me grow stronger to who I was meant to be. It was unbelievable to me how charming the people were, they told me the stories behind the buildings I was gazing at and the art pieces that I just couldn't make out.
The plane ride home was the longest thing I've ever been through. I stared out the 6 by 6 window watching the snowy mountains suddenly turn to flat land. I didn't have those sharp pains in my ears everyone kept telling me about, or maybe I did, but they just happened to over exaggerate a slight much. I understand how us Winnipegers take the flat land for granted, truthfully most say theres not much to look at, but I would strongly disagree. You just have to use your imaginations to see that to some the long grass and the wind blowing through it ever so gently could look like waves washing up on the shore like an ocean. Flying over Winnipeg looks like perfect little squares of yellow, green and sand coloured grass that seem to fit perfectly with eachother to create some beautiful masterpiece.
This week has been long and hard for I and many of my fellow classmates. We've all dealth with some hurt from words being said that may or may not be true and some jokes that seemed funny at the moment and later on found someone in tears. For some, They went through broken hearts. They suddenly thought they had what had seemed perfect and soon fell apart from there man trying to find someone better. I don't like to be in the middle of those things, so I make that choice of not dating just another guy, but waiting on that one special person who makes me feel things that just some ordinary guy couldn't. I like my plans and my ruitines because they don't leave me feeling rejected or hurt sitting in a puddle of broken dreams.
For the happier side of things, I had an amzing time. Words couldn't explain the excitement in my eyes. I promised myself that I would make every single moment count and that was exactly what I had done. I treasured each thing and new experience I saw and felt. I found myself in a dream that I had hoped would never end, but sooner or later you just have to wake up. I was on a bus for over half the time, which to you may not be your vision of boisterous, but for me I had a blast. I got to ride up to the top of a moutain and look out and a million smaller mountains far across the distance with the ocean in between and the trees just seem to fit with all the other colours in sight. To me this was something more then just a trip. It was an adventure that had taught me so many great things and I have even met some amazing people.
Did I forget to mention... I got in a ton of trouble this week. I was caught drinking a Monster energy drink, which wasen't aloud and climbing to the top of my hotel roof, just so I could get a better view of mountians. plus, I love to have a great time by using my loud mouth to laugh, tell stories and yell, which was pointed out over 3 times each day. This week must have seemed to our teachers like a million of wild animals finally escaping from the zoo. I just felt bad for the poor people staying in the hotel with us. This trip was definetly put into good use, I had a great time and to me that's all that had mattered.
But finally after a long hard week I could finally say "Home Sweet Home"
- Paige Carloni!
<3 hope you loved it!
I'm happy to be home. most people said they could go forever living there, well of course I could, but I would need those people I love around me to make my home, my home. I loved it there, every turn you made you saw new adventures up along the road and new places you were just dying to see. I took every moment in and kept it there to stay. I needed that place, more then I needed those brand new shoes or that Bench sweater. It helped me deal with situations and helped me face all those problems that seemed so big and that weren't so big after all, but most off it helped me grow stronger to who I was meant to be. It was unbelievable to me how charming the people were, they told me the stories behind the buildings I was gazing at and the art pieces that I just couldn't make out.
The plane ride home was the longest thing I've ever been through. I stared out the 6 by 6 window watching the snowy mountains suddenly turn to flat land. I didn't have those sharp pains in my ears everyone kept telling me about, or maybe I did, but they just happened to over exaggerate a slight much. I understand how us Winnipegers take the flat land for granted, truthfully most say theres not much to look at, but I would strongly disagree. You just have to use your imaginations to see that to some the long grass and the wind blowing through it ever so gently could look like waves washing up on the shore like an ocean. Flying over Winnipeg looks like perfect little squares of yellow, green and sand coloured grass that seem to fit perfectly with eachother to create some beautiful masterpiece.
This week has been long and hard for I and many of my fellow classmates. We've all dealth with some hurt from words being said that may or may not be true and some jokes that seemed funny at the moment and later on found someone in tears. For some, They went through broken hearts. They suddenly thought they had what had seemed perfect and soon fell apart from there man trying to find someone better. I don't like to be in the middle of those things, so I make that choice of not dating just another guy, but waiting on that one special person who makes me feel things that just some ordinary guy couldn't. I like my plans and my ruitines because they don't leave me feeling rejected or hurt sitting in a puddle of broken dreams.
For the happier side of things, I had an amzing time. Words couldn't explain the excitement in my eyes. I promised myself that I would make every single moment count and that was exactly what I had done. I treasured each thing and new experience I saw and felt. I found myself in a dream that I had hoped would never end, but sooner or later you just have to wake up. I was on a bus for over half the time, which to you may not be your vision of boisterous, but for me I had a blast. I got to ride up to the top of a moutain and look out and a million smaller mountains far across the distance with the ocean in between and the trees just seem to fit with all the other colours in sight. To me this was something more then just a trip. It was an adventure that had taught me so many great things and I have even met some amazing people.
Did I forget to mention... I got in a ton of trouble this week. I was caught drinking a Monster energy drink, which wasen't aloud and climbing to the top of my hotel roof, just so I could get a better view of mountians. plus, I love to have a great time by using my loud mouth to laugh, tell stories and yell, which was pointed out over 3 times each day. This week must have seemed to our teachers like a million of wild animals finally escaping from the zoo. I just felt bad for the poor people staying in the hotel with us. This trip was definetly put into good use, I had a great time and to me that's all that had mattered.
But finally after a long hard week I could finally say "Home Sweet Home"
- Paige Carloni!
<3 hope you loved it!
Sunday, 13 May 2012
Oh, That Sweet, Sweet Moment
You know it, that moment when your talking to that person who can make you smile and laugh and always enjoy the time you talk to them and you feel there emotion and your talking but not only through the mouth but also through the mind, while you exchange thoughts and opinions. Yea, I love that moment and I think I always will. I've learned to slowly love life more and more each day, because it's so precious and you may only live once, unless you believe in a religion that you may come back as a animal but, you get it. I've talked to some people and realized I should never ever think for one second I don't belong because even if I may not belong in a group or a gang I'm apart of something and that something is Me. I am something. No one can tell me I'm not, or convince me im not worth everything I do and everything I say. The point is you can learn something that can change your persepective on anything, you just have to slowly build trust, compassion and ever little thing in between to make a friendship grow. The only one thing you have to do is Listen. I've learned that from the best. You can be watching t.v. or listening to your favorite song to learn one little lesson and remember that no matter what your personality is it makes you who you are, you may not even realize you have a person willing to give there all to be your best friend. You just have to keep an open mind and am open heart. Try to let everybody in because everyone deserves a chance. so, if you don't know what your looking for, or who you are at all thats perfectly fine because that's what life is all about. I will always remember Y.O.L.O. : D
-Paige Carloni
this was dedicated to a great friend of mine. Who may not even know she is my friend at all. But, shes already taught me this much, so she deserves everything!
-Paige Carloni
this was dedicated to a great friend of mine. Who may not even know she is my friend at all. But, shes already taught me this much, so she deserves everything!
Saturday, 28 April 2012
The Inspiring Story of Eva Olsson
Hate, she told us hate is a strong word, she told us we don't know the damage that hate can do. She lived through hate her whole life, but not once have said it. She was 19 years old when a man walked into the Town Square of Szatmar, Hungary and they were told they were going to go work in a brick factory. Her and her family all 17 of them walked 7 kilometers and were forced to be put in a boxcar. The car only contained 1 pail of water and 1 pail used for the toilet, for 110 people, for four days. they were taken to Auschwitz, an extended family of 17 along with the other 430, 000 jewish families. On the train Eva was approached by a prisioner which told her to give her niece to her mother, and survived, because women with children were executed right away. they arrived to a gate were guards of death were to decide if you had a nice body, if so, you were sent to the right, the others were sent to the left, he was evil because he got to choose who was to live and who was to die. "by the time I turned my head to the left , I couldn't see my mother, and for that moment I couldn't see my mom I had wished I was to hold her in my arms forever and never let her go and tell her I love her always. but for me it was to late. I hope for you it's not to late. do it while you can". Eva was selected to work as a worker in the barracks, she had to sleep sitting up in a small cubicle with 8 others. she sat there while she heard loud trucks driving by collecting 2000 prisioners per night, headed for the gas chambers. As a person she should never had felt the pain of getting used to the feeling of death - gas chambers, screaming, and the silences that came 20 minutes later. "My father was sent to butchenwald. he worked there for carrying heavy things 7 months later he died of starvation in that december of 1944. people die. people die of old age, people die of sicknesses. people die of accidents sometimes, and we are given the strength to deal with it. What I have not been able to deal with, 11 million people died and the cause of their death was hate". "racism is a learned attitude". "In every European countries that the Nazis has occupied were good people. Many of those good people were also murdered. Catholic Priests in Poland were hung for trying to help Jewish people. But something was missing in some of those countries and that was compassion. Had there been compassion in those nations I wouldn't be standing here. In Bulgaria and in Denmark they wouldn‟t allow the trains to leave. They prevented the Jewish people from being transported to the death camps. They protected the Jewish people. And why?They weren't going to be bystanders. Bystanders are as guilty as the perpetrators.” Eva was selceted a second time along with 2000 young people Eva and her sister Fradel were taken to Dusseldorf to unload ships, then later, to work with 500 others in a Krupp factory. "If we had healthy bodies we were blessed. We became slave labours". Bergen - Belsen was were Anne Frank died. 104, 000 died at Bergen - Belsen. There was no bunks, no chairs and all prisioners had to lie on the floor, that floor was covered in diarrhea and lice. They had no water, no food and everyone was sick. They took away the water and the food ratios to speed up the deaths. Eva fell ill withTyphoid. "how did people survive? I can only share with you how I survived. I didn't want to give up. never. never to give up. I kept hope alive, and I was responsible for my sister. she was three years younger and I had to take care of her. so I couldn't die. If I were to have died the nazis would have won". On April 15th 1945 at 11:00 the British and Canadians liberated Bergen-Belsen. They found Eva lying on the floor amongst the dead, and marked her forehead with a red cross She was taken out of the hut and disinfected prior to evacuating her to a hospital. In spite of massive efforts 13,944 inmates died after the camp was liberated. “It's not about the challenges we face. It's about how we deal with them: the choices that we make. Only together as a people can we make a difference, so that this generation will never experience the horrors… never shall a child die by the power of hate. I cannot change the past, nobody can, but the future lies in your hands. You need to ask yourselves what example will you leave behind for the generations that follow you. I cannot make those choices for you. They are Eva relocated to Sweden after her recovery. She married Rude Olsson and they immigrated to Canada in 1951, settling first in Montreal and later to Richmond Hill. “My husband was a Swede and a Christian, he was educated and I was not, but he understood that it‟s about being different and accepting being different. My husband had a short journey. He died at 37, the victim of a drunken driver. He showed me unconditional acceptance of another human being. It‟s not religion or education or colour or culture that makes us different. What makes us different is our attitude. Unconditional acceptance, and love. Pass this on. It‟s the only thing worth having. The things that you can buy depreciate in value very quickly… the way we treat other human beings, with respect and dignity, will never, ever depreciate in value. This is the only thing I have to bring into your school, and the only thing I have to give away. Pass it on.”
-Paige Carloni
This touched my heart so much, she came to my school and she was the most loving person I have ever meet, she told us about her mother and how she wasn't going to let go of her arm, but if she had held on she wouldn't have been her today. she told us she went back to the gas chamber the one her mother had died in, it was a way to forgive her past, she's a strong women with a lot of passion. She's one of my true hero's! <3
-Paige Carloni
This touched my heart so much, she came to my school and she was the most loving person I have ever meet, she told us about her mother and how she wasn't going to let go of her arm, but if she had held on she wouldn't have been her today. she told us she went back to the gas chamber the one her mother had died in, it was a way to forgive her past, she's a strong women with a lot of passion. She's one of my true hero's! <3
in someone else‟s life.”
yours. I can ask you however to not be a bystander, but to be one of those who make a difference
Friday, 13 April 2012
Just a Crush
If only for the slightest moment he would look into my big brown eyes and realize I like him...a lot. He's the type of guy who makes your heart want to jump out of your chest because it's beating a million times each minute that passes and makes you want to stop and stare. He's got that wisdom in his eyes and that strong pride and joy. He nearly lives a picture-perfect life. He achieves in school, he's a great athlete and has an icredibly huge, compassionate heart, just like his parents. I could just sit and dream about the day that he held my hand, we would laugh, and talk about everything, nothing in real signifience. Then again it's only just a crush. if only he undeerstood I was trying my very best to get his attention and talk to him every possible oppertunity I got and hope that he cared enough to answer back. It's something about being happy when you see him around or hearing his name pop up in a conversation or him saying a simple word like hey just because hes trying to be nice. It's that shiver down your back and those fluttering butterflies you get in your stomach when you talk to him as if everything is normal but you could never imagine him liking anyone ever so much. It's that stunning look he gives you with all those white bright teeth and those dark brown eyes that makes you want to melt right on the spot. He may never know how much I like him or how much I would do to protect him from being hurt, but for nowhe doesn't need to know. I will take small steps forward and hope for the best. I'd fallen for his long, small frame, his hair as dark as night, and how he may act so fancy. He's not just another cute face he hides in his cave living in his own little word with his mic and controller he sure knows what he's doing, if only for a while he stepped out and realized how much he's truly missing. I've known him for a long time now and there's still so much I want to know. He may never know how I feel right now about him, but it wouldn't be called a crush, if it didn't hurt!
- Paige Carloni
hii, this was written about a guy I played hockey with 4 years ago, I've known him ever since. I finally built up enough courage to tell my friends about him and they have been truly supportive and telling me to never give up on something or someone I love. Thank You!
- Paige Carloni
hii, this was written about a guy I played hockey with 4 years ago, I've known him ever since. I finally built up enough courage to tell my friends about him and they have been truly supportive and telling me to never give up on something or someone I love. Thank You!
Tuesday, 10 April 2012
Those eyes
those eyes are meant to show laughter, joy, sadness or weakness but it's how you hold your inner soul in those bright loving eyes. I'm the type to hold my inner soul so hard that it shows even behind my fake smile, when I hurt deep within I hurt through my eyes people always seem to notice but never have the care to ask. I notice when people take those hard hits to the heart and they need a hand they don't need to ask I just know. what a great friend would do would be giving them those looks that say "pick yourself up, dry your eyes, you'll make it past this part" that makes them feel like they could never love or trust such a person. I've got those big brown eyes that shine like a crystal clear ball they have so much emotion behind them and you know exactly how I'm feeling. I've got a great friend that has those light green eyes that hides a secret I may never know but I will never give up trying to figure it out because he knows thats not my style. everyone may search, they may seak but i always seem so eager to find the answer but maybe I have to slow down and it may come to me. I can see that little lie you use to try and pass by but I just except it for how they play there game because it will hurt them in the end. I take those eyes and connect them with how I deal with things through my point of life and help them make what i've excepienced easy to let go. I love eyes the way the eyelashes spring out like a jack in the box or how there covered in colours because your eye is the canvas and you are the atrist. just remember some may read you like a book and some may not know a single thing, but dont be afraid to use your eyes to help a friend up or let a tear drop here or there because they have the power to let you be free or to hide behind that smile.
- Paige Carloni
Yes, Reid one part was written for you :P
- Paige Carloni
Yes, Reid one part was written for you :P
A beautiful melody
It's amazing how two totally different people can get something different from the same lyric, one person may think it spoke to them or that it connected to what there feeling or what they have experienced, the other person may think its something that made them stop and think about how they should live there lives and enjoy something even if it's only for a little moment. I truly think it's something more to the artist it's something that happened to them that made them wanna laugh, smile or cry but it gave them a reason to sing it and sing it with lots of emotion, i've always loved singing if it was in public or in the shower but it takes talent not to hit all the notes but to know how you should feel while your singing it. we can take any song and connect it with our lives because we wanna believe its true weather its d=for the best or the worst. I love my old style rock and roll the way it makes you wanna tap your toes or dance like a fool with you grandparents. yea, you might have been embaressed but hell have some fun they won't always be around. Yes, i love my country the beautiful twang to there voices makes you feel like you in the room with them and the guitar stums makes you feel like your right back on a farm. I love Rap, most people don't enjoy it, yes i understand that whole part but i love it the great vibe to it gets you pumped and help gives you that little jump start whenever your feeling down and it defiently gets you ready for that up coming hockey game. What comes to mind when i listen to an emotional song i think of someone sorting out there memories and creating something so beautiful to tell a story and helps us feel the pain that we have all felt before. I've always been a suck for those cheesy love songs but how could you not i'm not asking for some hero or prince charming but just thinking the person you will love for the rest of your lives is out there and you have no idea what your looking for or why? Sometimes in songs they leave those missing puzzle pieces that you have to search for yourself but it makes you wanna fill in the blanks but that the fun to not know exactly what they're trying to say. I've always loved reading lyrics over and over just to figure out what the artist is saying. Music will always be my life no matter if it's old songs, new songs or those slow songs. but, always remember to love the artists story they're trying to tell because we've all made the same mistakes and have to learn and enjoy that were growing. Just love hearing the beautiful voices that each person has and and enjoy those 3 minutes of happiness!
- Paige Carloni
i wrote this for the people i love and the people i enjoy listening to that talk about how artists are feeling different emotions and making it sounds so much sweeter i've always loved music because it can touch your hearts and make you feel like something different something more special. It can be easy to listen to a pumping up song but it can grab you and make you cry if its something that's happened in the past. never stop listening to those favorite tunes and connecting them with who you are because that what makes you you! :)
- Paige Carloni
i wrote this for the people i love and the people i enjoy listening to that talk about how artists are feeling different emotions and making it sounds so much sweeter i've always loved music because it can touch your hearts and make you feel like something different something more special. It can be easy to listen to a pumping up song but it can grab you and make you cry if its something that's happened in the past. never stop listening to those favorite tunes and connecting them with who you are because that what makes you you! :)
Monday, 26 March 2012
Young Love
I remeber being that full of life little brown haired girl who loved to be around the guys if it was playing tag or just rolling around in the mud. I never really fit in with the girls to them I was different, i was to loud or crazy for them, but I knew i was just being myself. I was never the type of girl to chase after the boys because i thought they were cute, I would chase them because I knew I was stronger and faster and they knew that too. I would always love to challenge the boys to an arm wrestling contest or to have a race to see who could run the fastest, it wasen't a big surprise to them that i always won. I remeber the first time I layed eyes on the new kid named Kyle i thought it was love at first sight we connected so fast and insantly i thought we were meant to be. I wanted us to have that fairytale story where he was my prince and i was his princess but i soon realized we were much more then that we were best friends in love. we were together every hour of the day if i wasen't at his house he would be at mine, and even at the busiest of times we made time to talk for hours on the phone. He was the first person i through a race for in other words I let him win but he was worth doing anything for, I lost my fast girl reputation but he soon relaized what I did was for him. I gave him my heart, my trust and my everything. As the years passed he found other friends and left me in the dust because i never put the ime of day to think what if i lost him , what would i do then...? so now as we are older we realize the things we've done, the people we've lost, but we never forget the people we love. we still have that connection because it could never be lost throughtout the so many years we've spent together, and because those little things we did created us to who we are and who we will become. i found out love may never have its fairytale endings but that true love never dies!
- Paige Carloni
I wrote this to tell a story about a guy who changed my life. We still are bestfriends in love, because we still spend time together no matter how busy we are in are whole hockey world. but I realize its not the things people do that hurt you but how you react in the end, he may have left me in the dust, but he made it up to me by remebering me when i needed a hand or he did. I also wanted to tell this story because i wanted to prove to people, people do drift apart and you can slowly lose someone you love but its never to late to hold on again. this was a fun story to tell because it reminded me of who i was as a kid and how I loved to just be myself, I've tried so hard to change who i want to become, but I slowly have to realize i should love who I am because thats when people love who you are!
and for you Reid I wanted to say i'm not in a hurry to figure out my life so quickly because thats also the whole fun part of life searching for those missing pieces :) I will naturlly love who I will become. I will dream on but I can't imagine they'll all come true, because only fools are satisfied :P
Stormy
Not once have i ever said i hate rain, even if it ruined plans, stopped a picnic, or just going to the playground to fool around. the way it hits your windown pain, the amazing feeling as it rushes down your face, or just the way it dances as it hits the ground. The way you can look up and see a million raindrops coming down. You can see the beautiful flashes of lightning and hear the huge bang of the thunder, you just stand there at the window as you count how long it takes for the second flash of light to come or skipping a heartbeat listening to the thunder shake you from under your feet, everyone talks about dancing in the rain but no one truly does it, as I'm outside enjoying the whole experience of the peaceful silence, and finally letting all my thoughts run through my mind and singing my heart out because no one truly cares to listen, I look out at the street full of cars because people are to busy with thier lives to remember those little moments that make a lifetime worth living. As you sit there in your house warm and dry, I'll be outside letting my imagination explore and my heart flow and everything in between, have fun for that little moment, I'll let my hair down as it's soaking wet, let my makeup run down my cheeks and becoming so heavy i can barley move. I'll be in my flip flops and my blue shorts and that same old ripped up sweater from all the other times i decided to jump into deep puddles and becoming muddy because nothing else mattered at that moment. As you enjoy your life the way you want through a window, I will enjoy mine through those hard, though storms!
- Paige Carloni
ok .. so I'm 14 i dont have much experience as others do, writing and and listening carefully to what people have to say. I've always tried to live my life the way i want others to see me as, and I'm the type of girl who loves to share my experiences and let people know I'm still a kid and want to have fun just like everyone else, I may think to much, lean on people, and take people for granted. but, i know for those special people i care about i could never stand to let them go, or ever let them change for that matter. Lately I've been trying so hard to figure out who and who i want to become as a women and as a person inside, but I know i just have to live in the moment and let the rest do it itself because as they say eveything happens for a reason..right? I love to write, draw, sing and dance and be a teenager i love to do the things that make me happy and to not worry about what others think about me, i know for a fact that caring what other people think is a hard thing to do because now a days you get judged on everything from how you look to how you dress, but im the tomboy type as people love to call me I've had a million guy friends and not to many girlfriends, but i play guys hockey and im a defence it all makes sense in the end.
so.. with this I would love to hear what everyone has to say about my writing because i love to hear the negatives and the positives of my writing so i can become better at what i love to do, anyways thanks for listening and learning a little bit about me.
- Paige Carloni
ok .. so I'm 14 i dont have much experience as others do, writing and and listening carefully to what people have to say. I've always tried to live my life the way i want others to see me as, and I'm the type of girl who loves to share my experiences and let people know I'm still a kid and want to have fun just like everyone else, I may think to much, lean on people, and take people for granted. but, i know for those special people i care about i could never stand to let them go, or ever let them change for that matter. Lately I've been trying so hard to figure out who and who i want to become as a women and as a person inside, but I know i just have to live in the moment and let the rest do it itself because as they say eveything happens for a reason..right? I love to write, draw, sing and dance and be a teenager i love to do the things that make me happy and to not worry about what others think about me, i know for a fact that caring what other people think is a hard thing to do because now a days you get judged on everything from how you look to how you dress, but im the tomboy type as people love to call me I've had a million guy friends and not to many girlfriends, but i play guys hockey and im a defence it all makes sense in the end.
so.. with this I would love to hear what everyone has to say about my writing because i love to hear the negatives and the positives of my writing so i can become better at what i love to do, anyways thanks for listening and learning a little bit about me.
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